My handsome boy

I'm supposed to be happy. New moms are supposed to be happy, but I can't be. I look at myself and I just about throw up. I've never hated myself so much. Anyone else feel like this? I'm angry all the time. I don't leave my house because of how I look. what the hell is wrong with me.

Why is it that every other female can look good after giving birth. I look like a train wreck. I feel gross and disgusting. meanwhile I see women who don't even look like they gave birth. I'm 18 and look like I'm old AF and I was really thin before my son. I just don't get it. sorry for the rant

what MANUAL pump works best for you and why

Anyone use fenugreek

So I pump about every 2-4 hours. I always get 5 oz in the morning and at least 2oz each time the rest of the day. I can barely get 2oz today, anyone else have this problem? I have plenty of milk, but I can't pump it out?

I already know I'll be judged but I was JUST curious:

Have any mothers smoked weed and breastfed? Anyone's baby test positive for weed at all? Or were they even tested?

My little Squeaker

Question: How long did it take you to have sex with you partner after birth? Did you feel "loose" or anything? that's my biggest fear...I didn't tear at all so I just stretched, and I don't want to be really loose the first time him and I get intimate.