baby eli 😍❤👣

had my little eli today hes so perfect 😍😘
so unexpected but so blessed !
his big brother loves him !

contractions since 3 am and still haven't gone to hospital im trying to be a trooper and wait as much as i can before going in .

39 weeks today 😧
how much longer will baby eli make me wait 🤔😍

cannot i swear cannot believe i am 39 weeks already !
compared to my forst this time around went by so fast !probably because my toddler has me up&down; !
baby elijah will be here soon 😍

is only being 1 cm dilated bad ? at this point ?
because im already stressing .
and once i got checked im cramping .

as the day gets closer i cant do nothing but stress !
my almost 18 month old has never been without me so hes not used to being with daddy for long or anyone else .
when i registered at the hospital i asked about him being able to stay with me and be in the delivery room since he is breastfeeding still and she said there shouldn't be a problem ,that i would talk to another nurse on the first floor whenever i went in to deliver. like heck what if that nurse tells me otherwise im seriously alway...

is it normal that my dr hasnt checked if im dilated or anything ??. they just check his heartbeat ans thats it !

only thing that has me a bit freaked out about having my baby is the episiotomy !😕😔
with my first i suffered so bad nothing worked to soothe the pain ,and it lasted 1 month just hoping this time around that isnt the case 😓

ladied ?.
so i recently moved back and i have yet to see my old ob it has been complicated without a car and hubbs working 2 hrs away not getting any days off whatsoever .what would happen if i go into labor and i dont have an ob here ?