***TRIGGER WARNING***

I can't believe in a week and 2 days instead of celebrating you being a month and 1 days old Marc, we will be laying you to rest with our family who has passed before you. It is so sad to know the pain never gets easier and the only thing I can hold on to in this life till I meet you again is your blanket, lock of hair, the picture we have of you and the necklace I have with your ashes. I cry myself to sleep a lot thinking of what or who you would of become in this life if you weren't taken before you had your first breath. I spent 9 mon5hs planning your childhood to make you an amazing man as I felt you grow in my womb just to be told a week before your due date that there was no heart beat.