I just wanted to take a minute and thank everyone for their kind words. When I got on this morning there was too many to answer back individually for me. So I just thought I would make a post. You ladies are so kind giving me a place to vent. I don't know why am being able to type things out seems to make me be able to deal with everything better. This weekend was wonderful I didn't feel so tired. So a lot of extra time spent with the kiddos. I did find out Friday little man is going to have to have his adenoids removed and tubes put in his ears on the 8th. Which just so happens to be the scheduled date for my next treatment. So I'm taking that as a sign that I made the right choice. I need to be there for my kids. This summer is going to be packed was fun. My sister and I decided we are going to have a summer birthday party for ourselves. Lol(our birthday is actually in February same day 4 years apart) i'm getting a zoo pass for the family, I'm trying to surprise Dh with a trip to Vegas. That is if funds allow for it of course. I at least want one trip with him. Trying to decide what's a good length of time to go and around what time of year.it's hard trying to figure it out by yourself. Just trying to get a lot of balls rolling just in case. I know doctors timelines can be wrong but this mama is definitely trying to have as much in order as possible.