Waiting on NIPT results

I’m 38 years old and will still be 38 when I deliver . Because of anxiety , I opted out of the genetic testing and I also did with my 2 year old . My nt was normal at 13 weeks 6 days and a nasal bone was detected so the dr did say I can breathe pretty easily based off of that . Well , I had an early anatomy scan at 16.6 and they told me the baby has one or two small holes in her heart calls vsd’s and also two cysts on the brain , both of which are soft markets for downs and other chromosomal abnormalities . Well , the cysts on the brain I’m confused about because when the dr came in to look she said “well , that’s questionable . Idk .” She didn’t seem to think they were actually there and only put the vsd in my paperwork . She said the type of vsd is very common and more babies with than than not do not have chromosome abnormalities . (399 out of 400 babies with this condition will not have DS , but many Down syndrome babies have it ) She said they fully expect them to close up before birth and if not shortly after and to never affect her life but because of this , they can’t lower my risk with my age . So I opted for the blood test and now I’m just going out of my mind with worry . She didn’t have any other markers . She’s measuring slightly big and chromosomally abnormal babies often measure small , she said . Has anyone been through something similar? I avoided the test because of anxiety but here I am . I already have GD and I’ve been sick with a fever for over a week and I just want my baby to make it out of me healthy .