Already 3 years..... This year will be my sons third birthday. November 9,2011 I gave birth to a sleeping angel. I was…

Already 3 years.....

This year will be my sons third birthday. November 9,2011 I gave birth to a sleeping angel. I was only 33 weeks +3 days. He weighed 3lbs 3oz. I went through a very very difficult time in my life. My pregnancy was not easy by any means. But I missed it so much. I missed my son. I didn't know if was going to ever make it in life. Shortly after I went back to work I lost my job. I just flipped. Then I saw my whole life as a failure. I blamed myself constantly. I had to hit bottom before I could get back up. June 17,2012 my life changed. It was my 21st birthday. My Dr prescribed me a therapist. I had gone to every meeting I had. I loved it. I decided to go back to school. I went for dental assistant. I got with a wonderful man, but something was still missing. I wanted to start my family. My df and I decided to have a baby. We tried but I was put under so much stress I barley had my period. (Probably didn't ovulate.)In January of 2013 my father was hospitalized with an ulcer that poisoned him. He had a month long battle with the ulcer. He was in the hospital the whole time. I went to the hospital every day after school he even helped me study and I passed a very hard test. When my dad passed it took a toll on me. I missed him a lot I felt like I had no breaks. I finished school and got a job in my profession. On January 6,2014 I found i was pregnant again! I was over the moon ecstatic! I had a hard pregnancy. I quit bc my job was to stressful. And i was in and out of the hospital. On June 19,2014 I had my 31 week ultrasound. My high risk Dr was worried bc my babygirl heart rate was dropping. It dropped below 88 and I cried. But it came back up. It started to fluctuate. They told me my amniotic fluid was low. They told me I needed to be admitted to labor and delivery. On June 22 2014 31 weeks +3 days, I delivered my daughter. She weighed 2lbs 12oz. She was delivered c-section. I had placental abruption. I was bleeding internally. But my life was saved. My dd's life was saved. God gave me a second chance. She looks like her brother. They even looked alike at birth! :'). Its going to be rough this year on his birthday. I'm so thankful my dd is here and I couldn't imagine having my life any different.