I’m quite annoyed and not impressed with this new doctor, first I get told by my old doctor that I have gestational…

I’m quite annoyed and not impressed with this new doctor, first I get told by my old doctor that I have gestational diabetes ok so now she doesn’t want to deal with me sends me to a new doctor who tells me my baby’s going to die... um what? She then makes me go for a non stress test I pass everything’s fine. After saying I’d like to try to control my diabetes naturally because I can not afford insulin she doesn’t contact me at all but still sends a prescription to the diabetes clinic in the city. Then I get a call today scheduling me another non stress test? And the diabetes clinic is saying I have to come in and do the insulin, when I ask them how am I to pay for it they say I have to figure it out.. ( sure just let me bend over and you can pull the money from my ass) secondly I can barely change the needle in my pen to test the blood sugar levels so unless a nurse is willing to come 20km out of town to my house then I don’t know how I’m expected to take insulin. I have never felt more healthy in my life so why are they using scare tactics and not fully explaining things to me? Unless they are seeing things in my ultrasound and not telling me. June can’t come fast enough I just want my baby and to never deal with those doctors again!