Quick rant because I've got too much on my shoulders, weighing on my heart and mind, right now.

So, I met a guy about 2 months ago. We've been talking, met a few times, the usual. But he lives in Texas, 17 hours from me. I found out he may have a girlfriend and it's shredding my heart. Lol. He said he was single, but is posting all these pictures of him and another girl and captioning it "My baby <3" and all that. We used to talk all day every day, but now I'm lucky if I get messaged back a few times a day before he reads it and doesn't respond. So, I've got that.

My daughters father has been giving every excuse in the book lately to not see her, so that's got my mind all upset. Every day is a new excuse and every day I drive past his house to make sure and he's got his girl over. So, I'm glad to see his newest piece is more important than his daughter. Oh well.

Lastly, my older sister has been starting drama and issues. Two days ago she blew up on my mom because my mom made a status she didn't agree with, and ended up getting her equally dramafied husband involved to name call and belittle. She was calling my mom, me, and my daughter some harsh stuff...then started turning to making racial slurs about my daughter and saying she was going to ruin our lives, like say I'm a whore and slept around and don't know who the daddy is, that I've had abortions (never have and never will), that I've sold myself for money, blah blah blah. Then she blocked us after telling my mom that she hopes the cancer kills her soon because she's tired of "your cunt ass, fake ass mother bullshit. You're not a mom to me and never have been, fat pig" and said she doesn't want to be told about mom's death or have updates on the diagnosis because she's going to laugh about it and celebrate because she'll be rid of the issue of a mom. So, she blocked us then made a status saying she was going to place an anonymous phone call to CPS and claim I abuse my daughter, say we live in a messy, infested house that's rotting, say we sell drugs and allow anyone and everyone into our house to "view" my daughter while I whore around, and claim I'm unfit and that, as a native child, my daughter would be better off in a foster home or on the reservation system. So, she crossed the line there. Ever since she blocked us, she's been going around spreading lies about my family, myself, my daughter,and our living conditions. She's slandering our name because she didn't agree with a post. So, I have that to worry about and to worry about if CPS will show up at my door and take my daughter for nothing more than lies.

My life is a mess, it's falling apart, and I'm at my wits end with how much more I can take before I explode. The only good is that my daughter turns 2 soon and is excelling. That's about it at this point.