Do you remember back when you were in school? You'd have a system, a structure to your day. The whole time you're complaining that you have no freedom... Then you finally make it to the end of the school system and you start to get some free periods and you get your reins loosened up! You have a blast at first "I can do anything you think!" So that's exactly what you do, a little bit of everything! But as the days pass you start to feel kinda lost. I could do this and this I'm learning but what do I do to get to where I want to be when there are so many options!? That's kinda how I feel this week. I have free rein!

I'm in between programs and I only have a few days left, but I notice that after do a full unaltered program that I feel kinda lost not know what to pick to do each day. I notice that I let my mind bring up my pain more. "You're stiffer today, it says so do do as hard of a program," my mind says to me, so I look for a medium program. I know that if I was challenged by a program and if it was there in black and white and in front of me telling me "Erin (yes my calendar talks to me, don't question it) Erin, today is extremely hard you're going to want to die leg day, you don't have a choice so do NOW!" that I would push through anything to keep on track.

So I can't wait till Monday when I am going to be starting either athletic training or competitive training. I haven't decided yet! I'm looking forward to having that structure back and know what ever I choose I will get those results!