I just need to vent a little bit. This isn't mom related

#vent I know that I face alot of issues having bipolar and anxiety and depression. I have always fought to keep friends. 👫. I'm a outgoing person and will give the shirt off my back for anyone. But lately I've started to wonder if it's just me as to why my friends always drop me like a bad habit. Am I too mental for them, am I not cool enough, is it because I can't work and make money so I'm always penniless? Why is it I can't keep friends is the question I repeatedly am asking myself... I can't find a reason. I don't beg from anyone, I do have to ask for rides sometimes because I have never been taught how to drive and don't have a vehicle. I was taught to never say no, and as a rule I don't say no to anyone. I even offer to help friends clean so I will have someone to hang out with and help them in the same breath. I don't lie to anyone and I just am at a loss for words to tell myself. I am a very depressed person because of this. I have no self esteem and self worth is at like a negative 100, I've changed myself for the better and now I can't figure out what to do to solve this issue. I can't take my meds because I'm pregnant and it's not allowed since it is a bad drug for pregnancy. If you have any advice please comment below. Thank you...

P.S. I just want to feel loved and needed.

It's making me cry because I just don't understand what am I doing so wrong to not be loved or liked by others. My family has already disowned me and I pretty much have noone already what's next