Sometimes I wonder why I'm still in my relationship. He doesn't ever talk to me about anything. But talks to his family. He didn't tell me that he wants to wait about 3 years to try again. Here I am taking about letting life take its course and hoping it's sooner rather than later and he is saying 3 years. I think if I wait longer I won't ever want another one. I miss Caroline and love her. I couldn't ever replace her. So I don't understand why everyone is saying I would if I had my rainbow baby too soon. I'm so tired. I can't keep this up.