As the day draws closer and closer I'm trying to stop myself from freaking out. Because of my age (40) the doctor is having me do a first trimester screening for genetic abnormalities for things like Spina bifida and down syndrome among others.
It's frying my nerves because it almost feels like they expect something to be wrong with my baby. I'm trying not to think the worst but they keep mentioning advanced maternal age and increased chances of ... just everything. I know they want to be prepared for if something is wrong and they want us to be prepared to be able to adapt in time but, even knowing why doesn't make it any easier.
I'm having a hard time gearing myself up for this and it's on Wednesday. I know they are drawing more blood for the test I'm not exactly sure what else is involved but I feel just terrified like I did something awful but accidentally getting pregnant at my age.
I'm sorry, I really am. Hubby doesn't understand and everyone else just tells me I'm worried about nothing.. it doesn't feel like nothing.