laying here next to my fiance, and feeling so blessed. I was feeling super insecure last night after wanting to try watching porn together as a couple (don't ask lol it was my idea) and I got all in my feelings afterwards because his favorite porn star literally had the best ass. And that's his favorite thing on me. And watching him watch it just made me want to hide in a shell, I didn't even want to lay Next to him in my undies and sports bra. I got extremely uncomfortable and we actually talked it out and he made me feel so much better. He really did. Our communication isn't always best, but he is trying. And I'm trying too, to be more open instead of acting tougher than what I am. I'm learning it's okay to have feelings. Something I wasn't allowed to have growing up.

sigh, the hormones and emotions being 9 months pregnant, literally due Anyday have hit a all time high. Lol

he literally grabbed my ass, grabbed my fat rolls, put his hands on my big belly bump, rubbed my chest and told me all of that was his and he is so attracted to me. I'm carrying his child. That's more beautiful than anything. He's more in love with me everyday. and that I'm all his. every curve, every piece of fat. 😭

💖 I seriously melted guys. MELTED. And then he kissed my forehead and asked me why can't I see that? That he wishes he could go back and erase all the bad things that were put in my head before him and I got together. And he will tell me everyday how beautiful I am, and help me build my confidence. I've Carried two of his children, and he is okay with the body that comes with that, and after that. 💖👣🍼

then we had amazing sex a few hours later, went for a long walk, went to taco bell, and I just woke up feeling extremely grateful and happy. 💖💖💖💖