WARNING LONG RANT; So irritated!!!!! SO takes my car to go hang with his friends and I fucking need…

WARNING LONG RANT; So irritated!!!!! SO takes my car to go hang with his friends and I fucking need it! He didn't tell me until I go outside with LO. His car doesn't have a car seat and it's a manual and idk how to drive those. He sprays this shit in the room I am staying in because LO is sick, had a blow out- and I'm allergic so my eyes fucking burn and he just fucking leaves. So selfish! I hate living with him. I hate that I have no where else to go since my mom kicked me out of her house. All he does is think about his freaking friends that block his calls or ignore home for months at a time. I hate him more than I love him. Especially when he does shit like this. Like all day I'm in pain and he leaves while I have to bathe, feed and give medicine to a girl who hates taking it and kicks my stomach over and over. Who won't sleep because her dad isn't here. He goes outside to smoke a cigarette literally 4 times an hour- which is basically half the day unless he's sleeping which is even longer. All he thinks about is his pain and how he needs to find pills to ease it. I'm so sick of all this bullshit. And I'm sorry I'm just venting this out because I have no one else to talk to since my mom and I aren't talking anymore.