I haven't seen or talked to my dad's dad since I was 8... so last month when he got my number and called I was shocked.. not only because of the fact that he put the bottle down long enough to track me down, but because he asked how I was doing and about my son before telling me that he was nearing death.. when he said that I had to pause because all I could think was "how is that going to make me forgive years of not being important enough to sober up? as far as I'm concerned you've been dead for years."

I got so sad just thinking about how I couldn't even fake sympathy or pretend to want to see him. I can't stand the guy but it's sad to know that I feel that way about someone who should be so special