The worse rhing ever , I lost faith , I don't believe in god anymore , everything was going well idk what happened I want to die , I waited so long to have him and this happens , I prayed to god so much I had faith but it wasn't worth it , right now im just full of hate and guilt, why didn't I go to the hospital sooner .? I'm so depressed I can't believe I lost my baby , everything was going so well .. Baby Elijah I love you so much 💔 you have no idea 💔💔