Today is definitely a trying day for me. Being 31 weeks pregnant and hubby wanting to give up chemotherapy is extremely hard to deal with he has had it 3 days in a row and has two days to go and he wants nothing to do with going. I am scared that he's going to give up and I'm going to be left with 2 kids to raise alone. There is a guy from my grandmother's church that has cancer at 27 and he was just told that there is nothing further they can do for him he's only been married a year. It scares the crap out of me to think if my hubby stops treatments that it's going to spread and I'm going to loss him we've been together 9 years and married for 2. I'm exhausted with the fighting to get him to go to treatment and fighting with him because he feels like crap and then takes it out on everyone else. I understand that he is going through something that I can't even fathem but I'm 8 months pregnant taking care of our 4 year old and still working full time trying to make it so I can take my full leave that I need to try to destress. I never get time to myself to even gather my thoughts or cry and I don't know what to do anymore. I am 100% exhausted and just want to be able to relax. I truly just want to cry and cry for a long time. I don't usually cry but I'm on the verge of a break down.