Ugh this sounds so selfish and petty, but every time I see a pregnancy announcement or a bump-shot I get a pang of…

Ugh this sounds so selfish and petty, but every time I see a pregnancy announcement or a bump-shot I get a pang of jealousy and sadness...we're not even actively trying for a second baby yet, but I really wanted to be by the time my girl turns 1 year and it doesn't look like it's gonna happen. I had a "scare" recently where I thought for sure I was pregnant and my doctor was too, and I wasn't...just my prolactin (breastfeeding hormone) levels spiking again and keeping my period at bay for a while...ever since that very clear NEGATIVE I have been so depressed about it...all my friends on Facebook are pregnant with their second babies and they post beautiful weekly bump photos and here I am on the sidelines, wanting so badly to join them...I'm being pathetic, I know. I am happy for them, don't get me wrong, but I am so sad that I can't give my girl a sibling yet and it makes me feel like it will never happen, just like my brother and his wife...they wanted them close in age and my nephew is turning 3 in a few days and they are nowhere NEAR ready to try for another. It's just like one of those things you say you want and then reality kicks in and it simply drifts away out of sight until eventually, you realize it's too late and never gonna happen.....