I just can't sleep anymore. I tossed and turned all night. I showered 2 times.. I sat outside forever. I finally fell asleep at about 4 to just have to wake up now.. my nerves are so bad. :/
@kiaalford77, I thought I was the only one worried about dying.. I have done it once before too but for some reason I feel real worried!
@heavenwings, I feel for you too baby doll. I hope it gets better. this sure has been rough. I go tuesday for my surgery and I was ok with it until last night and now I'm terrified of my surgery, this is my 3rd one. but I have a bleeding disorder and I'm scared to leave my children without a mother. lol I'm sure I'll be fine but good gracious sleep is not fathom able right now.. :/
@heavenwings, me too for some reason. I think it's because I think of my other children (step son who is almost 3 and my other son who will be 1 next month) and the thought of leaving them without a mommy terrifies me. they are both very close to me, like inseparable from my hip.. even going into the hospital for 2 days being away from them makes me cry... I told my husband to just bring the pack and play up there and they can stay with me ! haha