I am 22, I have a beautiful son who was born 08/12/2015 and am currently due on July 24,2016. I also have a 2 year old step son who is so amazing! I've married my soul mate :) 01/09/2015 and I just love our family we are building!

RANT: please excuse the language

so we live with my in laws and they have a serious roach problem due to lack of giving a fuck and too much worthless shit they never use piled up.. so tuesday the guardian guy is coming to spray the house, well they have to get all their shit moved outside everything out of cabinets and this and that. we have been working on it since this morning and they have been constantly spraying roach spray and I sat down for a few minutes and all i could taste was chemica...

i am just exhausted. my 11 month old has an ear infection, he is cutting 2 molar teeth, my 3 week old has cried for 4 days now.. I do believe he is developing colic and I am running on no sleep. I just want my boys to feel better, my heart is literally broken. and I'm laying here now with my first few minutes of peace and quite in 2 days.. River( 11 month old) is napping and greyson is finally peaceful in his swing at its highest speed.. I pray they feel better soon.

I'm 2 weeks post partum i delivered by c section and had a tubal ligation. i am cramping so bad this morning. i feel like I'm having a severe period :( I'm bleeding more than usual and have an aweful headache. ugh I guess my body is trying to change back to normal but my goodness I just want to sleep in a heated bed and not move

funny story :)

so I go to take a shower and my husband is on the couch with the baby and my father in law is playing with my 11 month old. I get out of the shower and come into the living room and I didn't see river.. and my husband and the baby were sleeping.. so I search the house and still can't find him.. well my father in law had him in the sink giving him a bath because he pooped! bahahah he said... this is how I change shitty diapers :) I thought it was hilarious

I had my c section done 6 days ago... I've lost 20 lbs already. :)

I'll be so glad when I'm able to pick my 11 month old up again and do what mothers do. having this c section and depending on everyone else right now fucking sucks. I'm so irritated because people think they know my son better than I do. and try to tell me and argue with me when I'm telling them what he needs or wants. did you carry him for 9 months and raise him since? I didn't fucking think so. God I'll be glad to be back to normal. I mean I appreciate the help and all but serioulsy.. it'd go ...

I hate when my husband gets sick and still has to work. he builds houses out in the heat all day and all i do is worry about him . he's got low blood sugar and gets the shakes and all and he was sick all night with a bad headache and sick to his stomach, was gonna stay home from work but he can't today because they are setting trusses for a house and he's got to be there... he just left with the shakes and holding back getting sick... I sure hope he is okay today. :(

my family:)

my family:)

up again with the boys.. my 11 month old is just laying in his crib playing and talking and our newborn woke to feed and have his diaper changed. I have had such a bad headache since yesterday :( and to top it off I just had a c section and tubal ligation and I wake up thinking something is on my stomach and before I know it I've smacked myself so hard in my stomach all i could do was instantly cry and scream. and I'm now laying here wide awake in way to much pain to sleep, also waiting for my l...