.. I have .. a problem. I want to hurt myself. I want to bruise my already ruined body. I want to cut it. I want to…

I left a message for my Triage nurse, So now while I wait for a response Ill watch a favorite movie or something.. Thank you guys for being so understanding and not judging me. My son definitely comes first and I never ignore his needs. I am just struggling with myself..

Im calling now Ill talk to my Advice nurse.

I would talk to someone, it's either ppd or you aren't truly happy in your relationship and should leave.... but if you talk to someone and explain the whole thing they would be able to help you and help you decide which it is

I will.. Ill call my doctor.

First I'd call your doctor. Please get some help before trying anything harmful to yourself-you are not worthless. You deserve a good life with your son. Then, you'll have to decide what you want with your husband. Do you want to try and see if he'll change, or are you ready to live without him? Please keep in touch with someone so we know you're ok girl. Prayers your way too.

like I feel pathetic cause people udually get mad and say Post like these are just for attention.. but I genuinly feel numb. I want to do these things.. And its the truth not for attention. So thank you guys for your help.

sweetheart my husband did the same crap. I'm sorry to say if he is doing now he will continue to do it. it has nothing to do with ppd. all you want is for your husband to look at you like you look at him. yes it has put you in a depressed mood. what I did to get out of that rut was I left his ass, yes it will be tough, but it's worth seeing the smile on your baby boys face. or just ignore his infidelity and do what makes you happy everyday. your alive and you have a beautiful baby boy go outside and enjoy. breathe in the fresh air, listen to the birds, and everything around you. Only you can make yourself happy.

I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. I can relate to how you feel. I'm not a doctor of course, but if you want to message me just to talk I'll be here.

You need to leave him and find true happiness, you deserve so much better. Please don't hurt yourself, I know it's hard but you have to try not to for your son

Contact your doctor. Sounds like ppd

sounds like you have PPD. i had the same issue and they gave me things for it. and it helped me.

If it gets to bad honey get some help. I know a lot of people don't want to see someone for these things but trust me baby it helps. Praying for you and your family.

I know how you feel mama. ive been in that situation, but had to take it day by day.

I feel so sick..