Laying in bed talking to the bestie and it's just to damn silent I hate peace and serenity cause the shit always hits…

I'm sorry momma. Try to relax and pray 💕

I have high anxiety, I understand that's why I have my reminder on my forearm. just breath and try to relax

:)

Like example today my husband wanted a hair cut so I walked around Walmart for a little bit and My 4 year old said mama I'm thirsty so she wanted water so I walk over to the coolers and grab a bottled water and the lines were long and I had set my phone in the basket I have a iPhone 6s Plus so anyway the lines were long so I started to walk back to the back to pay for the water and I couldn't steer through the people so my 2 year old took the water from me so I could steer right well when this happened my 4 year old proceeded to throw my phone because she was mad and start kicking so I took the water and put it back I told her she wasn't getting anything acting out like that so she started to yell and scream and kick at the top of her lungs people were staring at me I heard one woman say how can she not control her child like she was screaming like you hear some kids in Walmart and you think OMG if that was my child I'd be whooping their ass yeah it was bad and the worst part we were towards the back of the store and my husband could hear her all the way at the front it's so stressful and idk what to anymore @autumnsmomma125 @purplemissed

And I also must add she acts like this everywhere home public everywhere 24/7 @autumnsmomma125 @purplemissed

has she been spoiled? or maybe she realized she isn't gonna be the only baby any more so she's acting out.

Yeah I don't play that game too bad we can't spank any more with out some one screaming abuse

She has 3 other siblings @purplemissed and no I don't allow spoiling I feel it creates a ego and is mentally unhealthy I get it every once in a while it's ok but not all the time

Actually it's legal in Texas to spank your child as long as u don't inflict any marks @purplemissed

maybe she needs some child counceling, and I'd be giving a spanking. she's gotta learn that she can't do that.

I called someone today she was in foster care before I got her back @purplemissed shows what being in a seemingly good safe place will do to you cause before they took her she wasn't like this and before this goes any further the reason for removal is in my home town hearsay is tops evidence and to many people lied @purplemissed

It's ok I was a foster child. you don't have to explain to me

They think the system is so good when actually it's not I had to hear my daughter scream and cry leaving me and then when she was coming for unsupervised visits I was alway noticing bruises on her so I brought it up concerned and they told me if I continued to ask questions they would make sure I wouldn't get her back....@purplemissed

Yeah I would cry so hard I would get bloody noses because I missed my mom so much, they cut off our visits. after that they told me my mom didn't love me and she didn't want me. then I was abused in almost every home I was in. and then I tried to kill my self twice. I hate the system.

I'm so sorry I teared up reading that @purplemissed

It's okay we each have our roads, mine made me stronger and actually renewed my faith... I got to talk to my bio mom before she died. and I learned the truth. and in the end she knew I loved her and I knew she loved me.