I don't think I'm a good mom at all. I'm actually really terrible in my opinion. I yell and swear in…

You just have to keep in mind that this is a whole new world for them. They never cry to upset you or make you mad. Definitely tell your doctor what you just told us. They can help.

Maybe you should talk to your doctor about it Hun it's possible it could be a type of depression since your life has changed since getting pregnant

I agree with @michelleaaliyah It is normal to be upset times but post Pardum depression can get real bad and this sounds like it. Many women go through this.

agree with @michelleaaliyah and @mommastone this sounds deeper

its much deeper than I ever expected it to be

@stephk4611, that's scary, you need to get help hun. Have you thought about harming your baby? Remember their innocent and don't deserve that at all, maybe let a family member take her while you get help ?

I'm going to go back to school I'm in therapy right now but I already have an hormonal imbalance which doesn't help at all

I think all mothers have thought these things more than a few times even if we haven't said them out loud. just leave the room and breathe for a min. try listening to meditation music. it helps so much.

it does forcing myself to stay calm through a changing, feeding and then talk her and stuff. makes me feel better

You should definitely talk to your doctor right away. Here's a link to find PPD help locally

www.1800ppdmoms.org

thank you.