New mommy here-

Yesterday was our first time going out together without our son. He is 13 days old today and yesterday was my birthday. I had a great time. We went to dinner and a movie but I missed my son so much. My mom babysat and sent me pictures of him while we were at dinner. My heart has never hurt so bad before...

I ran in my front door and didn't run straight to him because I didn't want to look like a nut. I know he was OK w my mom. All I could think was how I just needed to touch him, heat his steady breathing and inhale that beautiful baby smell. I just wanted to wrap myself around this tiny little man. My mom asked if I wanted him and I said please. She had me take off my jacket and get a little more comfy and then handed him to me and I broke. I just started bawling... I missed him so much... to have something be apart of me for so long and then walk away from it for a few hours was the hardest thing I have ever done. I love him so much it hurts. It's amazing to be able to love someone so much you feel like you will self destruct... he's my detonator.

I love you Jaxon man!!!