honestly I wish I could go back to when I was pregnant and just wait to go into labor by myself..... I got induced at exactly 39 weeks because I was soooo ready to have her I honestly couldn't wait any longer but I wish someone had told me to just wait.... thinking back, I kind of wish I had waited. I wanted to experience natural labor, not a drugged up labor... /: it gets to me a lot
I had a planned Caesarean section with my son. He was and is perfect and healthy. I recently had an ectopic pregnancy in my scar....I regretted decision for c-section but at the time wanted my baby and was MISERABLE. Dealing with the ectopic was hard--I was so depressed over that baby that would never be because my scar was there and if I would have just waited (I was late 41 weeks) maybe my ectopic would have been okay. On the flip side maybe my son would not have or I would have had to have a c-section anyway. I try not to dwell on what it wasn't but the positives on what it was! I recently had a friend loose her baby at 38 weeks and one at delivery. The important thing is you had your baby and you two are both fine. Please don't be hard on yourself.
I know what you are feeling--anytime. 😌