This isn't the first time I feel like this and it's sad I know it won't be the last.. Warning: this is a rant .... When…

This isn't the first time I feel like this and it's sad I know it won't be the last.. Warning: this is a rant .... When I found out I was pregnant I feel into a deeper depression than what I was already In, I didn't think I was ready, I didn't know if this was the guy I really wanted a child with, I didn't know what to do, my mom talked to me and my boyfriend made me feel a lot better I slowly got over it and came around to the idea, my boyfriend was so excited picking names, making up scenarios that would later on happen and was just set on the idea that it was a boy. He told me he felt I would go through postpartum depression but it was going to be okay he would look over the baby whenever I wasn't feeling okay, he would take him love him bond with him do all these great things, well today we found out I'm having a girl. I know say I because I am all alone in this, just me and my girl, when I found out I cried not happy tears sad tears, scared tears I was so scared to see what he was going to say, he was just quiet and serious and told me he would be here financially and that's all, he said he can't bond with a girl, it's not what he wants, if I go through that depression and unintentionally neglect the baby because of postpartum depression I was on my own, he won't watch over her, he won't change her diapers, he won't be there for her like he would if it would have been a boy. He isn't only neglecting the baby he is neglecting our family. And there are no words to describe how broken I feel.