Trigger. Lost baby Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?
**BIRTH STORY** March 24th 1:45am. (Me & my 10yr old home sleep) got up to use the bathroom & Had my bloody show. So I text my bf who works in L.A (2 hours away/off at 330am) saying keep phone on loud she'll be here within 24 hours. 2:30am felt a slight uncomfortable pressure starting.Text my bf saying pressure is starting I'll probably be calling early am. 3:30am mild contractions starting 12 min apart. Text bf saying head down they've started. 4:10am..7 min apart starting to hurt. Crawl on floor to help (no help)...get in bath (no help). Get out..in pain. Screaming laying on bed and banging on wall...daughter wakes up freaking out. I say baby is coming. She gets me towels I was sweating trys to rub back and tell me to cry & scream in pillow lol. By this time I'm sure a few neighbors have been waken lol. 4:20 am.. 4 min apart IN HORRIBLE PAIN. I'm thinking shit my bf won't make it. I'm screaming loud, hitting my wall pulled a blind down lol laying on my side in bed rocking back and forth. Only position I could tolerate a lil. And with every contraction I lose my breathe and have to tighten my muscles/push. 4:32am 2 min apart. I'm dying. By now I'm sure my.complex thought I was being murdered. My daughter is there still in shock but helpful thank goodness. Told her to get dressed. She says ok but i dont want to go to school im staying with u lol. Ok girl lol. 4:44am as I'm fighting screaming thru a contraction my water POPS alllll over the place like a water balloon and I think "oh fck shes coming". I cry out my water just broke to my daughter call Nana on your phone. I call my bf muffled screamed my waterrrr just broke I'm calling 911 and going. He says something like he's 30 min away but I hung up lol & called 911 (4:45am). They answer and I yell/cry "shes coming!!"she said who's coming??! I said the babyyy, she said on youre pregnant. Etc she stays on phone saying breathe, get in middle of bed all that good stuff. I hear so many sirens THANK GOD. 4:51am about 8 paramedics appear in my room like angels lol. I hang up w/ 911. They ask questions idk I keep saying I gotta push. They say no don't push let's sit up & get in chair so we can head to hospital. I keep screaming I can't move I gotta push. They say nooo. I say yesss lol. I say I can't breathe. They give me oxygen. I say imma push I feel her coming down!...one paramedic was like "Amber don't.... Oh ummm is that hair?! OK she's gotta push get towels get towels. My daughter gives them towels and goes talk to officers in living room. 1 push I can feel 'ring of fire' and head out. I can breathe a lil better. 2nd push. Still in. 3rd hard push I feel her body slid out and pain subside. SHE'S HERE... 5:02 AM born on Mommy's bed.
IUI Monday!! So today I went in for my routine bloodwork and ultrasound, and found out that I have three follicles at 17mm! Plus another two at 15mm. When leaving the clinic my FS said to take another dose of gonal-f and come back tomorrow to check to see how big they got and that we would do the iui on Wednesday. Well, after getting home, taking my gonal-f and going out to shovel snow (lol) I get a call saying that I am SURGING!!! I haven't ovulated on my own, or even come close to it in years!!! It was a good thing we picked up a trigger shot before we left too :-)
so anxious going to TTC again for the first time this month after a mmc in November and d&c in December. that was my first pregnancy so I'm TERRIFIED I won't get pregnant again or get a sticky bean! We have a really good feeling about it but I don't want to get my hopes up :/. my fertile week starts Sunday and I would give anything to get my rainbow baby! let's hope I get pregnant and it sticks!
WTF how is the hospital going to call me 1 HOUR before I'm about to leave to get induced (my appt is at 8) & tell me they are all booked and don't want me to come until 6 am now, I didn't answer so they left a voicemail but I don't care I'm not calling them back and I'm going in at my appointment time.. I'm so furious I've been busting my ass all day and been stressed all day for this just to get that call.. My BF is busting his ass getting his job done to make it home in an hour and I have family coming and family & friends who moved stuff around for this.. So beyond pissed.. Would you go in anyways and act like you didn't get the voicemail because that's what I'm about to do
