I've never been big on celebrating my birthday since I've had quite a few things happen and last year was just horrible. but this year I kinda want to do something special but I don't think my husband's even thought about it

... I do know that I'm not spending my day with his parents as we all sit around mindlessly scroll through our phones and pretend to watch TV.. but I know I won't say anything because that's just how I am. the only thing I've been okay with talking about and planning that's for me is the baby shower and honestly I wish I was a host and wasn't going to be in the middle of all the attention