this is a long post but I'm just feeling down and need advice. I'm 20 years old I have 3 yr old boy, a 2 yr old girl and 11 weeks pregnant with another. I've been bashed for having so many so young. I'm engaged to a wonderful man, have my own house, and my own job. I take care of my kids and all my responsibility but still being bashed. I feel like a bad mom my kids don't listen to me just everyone else and they act like they hate me when their daddy comes home. I've always have self esteem issues and I feel fat all the time. I got big after my first 2 kids but dropped down I am now 126lbs after gaining 3 lbs from being pregnant. I feel like the biggest person even though I know I'm not. I know I'm all over the place but I need to vent to get everything out. I feel so down about myself. my fiancee and my mom are very supportive, but my sister (my twin) downs me first it was bc I was too fat and now it's bc I'm too skinny I can't make her happy and my dad always makes fat jokes. I know I'm small and my best friend is bigger than me and I think she looks really good but when I look at myself I feel disgusting. in sorry everyone.... idk what to think or do.