jan 28th of last year, i lost my brother, my best friend. He was only 27 at the time, (he would have been 28 now, his…

jan 28th of last year, i lost my brother, my best friend. He was only 27 at the time, (he would have been 28 now, his bday just passed in november.) It was sudden, ¬ expected. As each day passes I miss him more and more. People who said it gets better in time, lied. &I hate when people tell me things happen for a reason, because they dont. Thats the worst possible thing you can say to a grieving person. People need to be more careful with their choice of words. For any of you that have lost someone close to you, listen to this song.. Its the song i picked out for his funeral.

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=N1JcPmsoNkE

he would have been the best uncle ever,

i remember when i got pregnant the first time 5 years ago, and i was so young and scared. I was only 15. I sat him and my father down at the kitchen table to tell them.. My brother couldnt have been more happy with the decision I made to keep her and take care of her, and change my life to be a mom. He was so excited to help me out with him/her and be an uncle. He was there for me always, never against me, alqays made suere i knew I was never alone.. exp when things didnt make since and I was lost and confused. He was so sad for me when i lost my baby. He was the best big brother I could have asked for. I couldnt have asked for anything more besides to still have him by my side. I just hope he blesses my daughter on her way down & I hope he is there with me at the hospital. To think in the same month I lost my brother, and will be gaining a daughter.. is just.. i dont even know. anyway sorry for the long post Its been a while since i have vented about him seeing how I try to be strong for my parents and dont want them to see me upset or crying. any way

i hope you all have a blessed day. check the song out its beautiful