I have a confession y'all. My parents made me get an abortion the first time I got pregnant and now I'm 38 weeks with…

people make mistakes... just learn from them..they make you a better person! all you can do is not dwell on the pass && be the best mother you can be to your little one

Make sure you talk to your dr asap. I am about getting depression medication cause i struggle with it to. It's not fun. :/

Sorry didn't mean to get so spiritual on your post but this is definitely a time for me to pour into you

That's when God works best love when we have all these "buts" God allow everything to happen for a reason! The test is knowing that as long as you continue to choose Him He will continue to blow your mind! Shoot He will blow your mind even when you think He has left you. It's hard to think that everything we go through whether good or bad is not for us. You're going to come across someone that is going to feel the same way you are feeling now so it's important that you work the process and trust God to bring you through. Yes PP is common but I BIND THAT IN THE NAME OF JESUS over all of our lives!!!

I swear I don't lol. but really do pray about it. and just know that this too shall pass. Its a part of your testimony. I couldn't imagine going through that but you can use your experience to encourage somebody who is where you were. I had to learn that the hard way.. I'm sure when you see your little baby you'll fall in love.

Yeah but I had sex willingly! @sexii_diiva

Counseling isn't helping. feel like their also judging me. but it's nice to know some people can relate@valerie_jean

yea but you were forced ...

Don't feel bad! People think the people who get abortions are heartless and don't have emotions but what they don't understand is how hard it really is... I've gotten one before and til this day I think about. It's something you live with for the rest of your life. It's emotional and heart breaking and can cause depression.. I was depressed for a while and when I first found out I was pregnant with this baby I felt guilty for keeping it. Its completely normal to feel this way. It happens. You will bond with your baby and love it unconditionally, it just may take time! And if you need to talk to someone about it, do it. Before and After I got an abortion I was horrible depressed and went to counseling and it helped a lot. (Sorry this is so long).

I saw it you guys. I literally saw it. I took the pill and bleed out in the tub and saw the sack and the tiny embryo in it. that image is engraved in my memory.@junebaby, @sexii_diiva @sincereholt

You are right, after some things, your relationship with God changes and I know he forgives but. Idk. there's always a but@sincereholt

it was my fault. I could've said no and had them cut me off but I wasn't financially stable@sexii_diiva

what your feeling is very common. sometimes bonding happens at birth and sometimes it takes awhile after. I agree though to just watch for signs of post partum depression.

Just don't allow anyone to make you feel bad about how you feel. My solution for everything is PRAYER. It changes things that we have no control over!!!

it wasn't your fault do don't blame yourself!

Lol. you have a life silly@jellybeansmommie

Yeah.they will be! I relapse into depression quite frequently. Even over an F for months. so. this is going to start off as a rough journey@alexandrajoy13

dnt

you can talk to me lol i dint have a life right now

Yeah. Ima try to be patient. and my husband doesn't really wanna talk about it. my friends don't know and they don't believe in abortion.@sexii_diiva, @sincereholt

Just make sure you watch out for post partum depression after baby comes. I hope things change though!

you talk about it with anyone else?

Believe it or not how you feel is actually common. It may take time for those feelings to come. Of course who wants to come to grips that when you see your child or even while you feel the baby moving you feel no emotion. Don't rush the process. But just trust your feelings will change!!!

Mmm. maybe. we don't even talk about this pregnancy because they remember @sexii_diiva @jellybeansmommie

I feel like once you see your baby all of that will disappear.

it may change when baby comes!