-22 years old.
-Been with my loving (albeit annoying at times) boyfriend for 2 1/2 years 😉
-Baby crazy for over 5 years.
-I plan on gentle parenting, cloth diapering, vaccinating on a delay, and typical crunchy mom things.
-I work on a military base with infants 6wks-14months old.

It's been 4w2d since my MVA(type of D&C) and I got my period today.
I'm happy it didn't take long for my body to start working again.

Am I an Angel Mom now that I know it stopped delevoping, or do I wait for the actual miscarriage to start?
It would make sense that I am one NOW, I just don't know if there are rules to this sort of thing.

Gorged myself on sushi because fuck it. Why not. My baby is dead.

I want to go back.

I want to start this day over. I want to see a healthy baby on the screen and see it's little heart flickering. This sucks.

My baby is measuring small and they can't find a heartbeat. Most likely I'll miscarry soon.

Kenneth and I have decided that the next(first?) big expense were going to get is a baby monitor! Can anyone give me some good recommendations? I don't care for the ones that play music. I like to be able to move the monitor around with the remote, and it doesn't need to have audio as I plan on staying near my baby and can hear them with my ears, I mainly want a good camera. Let me know what you bought, and how much it was!

So Kenneth and I were talking to his mom today.
Apparently she plans on flying in for the birth of our baby.
I don't know how I feel about this. I've seen her with her other grandkids and she doesn't respect their parents or their decisions. I'm worried that if I didn't want her to come over for the first few days that she would take it personally. And that if I did let her over but wanted her to wash her hands she would look at me like I'm being overbearing. I just want things to go MY way w...

Had my first midwife appointment today!
This was just the intake appt. We went over my medical history, they asked us both a ton of questions. I had a pap smear done and I've been cramping since it happened, but the spotting stopped so that's good. (I just have a sensitive cervix, okay?! 😂)
They set me up on their app which has all the information they want me to follow over the next 7 (ALREADY?!) months.
I'm to eat 2600 calories, including 5 servings of fruit/veggies, and 60-75 g of protein ...

My mom will be in town the day of my ultrasound! So she's coming to my appointment! I'm so excited. Mainly because she will see the midwifery and feel more comfortable with my choices.

8 weeks today. And still wishing to see the tiniest start of a bump! They say it will show up sooner on my small frame?