I'm 30. divorced. But with a really great guy now. We have been trying since Sept 2015. Sadly I have some significant medical issues unrelated to baby/pregnancy but we are begining to wonder if they are effecting my ability of conceive. We have just seen a dr inreguards to the lack of baby. Now we wait for the fertility specialist.

Feeling so depressed this mother's day. Lost the relationship with my own mother. Have been told i am unable to bear children. Just wanting to crawl under a rock and cry. At any rate I truly do hope all you mother's out there have a very special day.

I don't know how to start my explanation of what's bothering me. So if this comes across as scattered I'm sorry. Ok here it goes:

My bf and I have been trying to conceive for close two years now. I have repeatedly asked my mother if anyone in the family has ever had fertility difficulty. All I was ever told was nope your the only one. Well the other day a very close family friend told me my mother lost almost 10 pregancies before she had me. (The oldest) I feel so betrayed by her. I would love...

I went to the fertility specialist today. He ordered some test. But baring a miracle of some kind I can not have kids. He says that my previous surgerys have created so much scar tissue that my whole reproductive system is over whelmed and it is too much to try and cut away. I don't even know how to feel right now. I guess I hope for said miracle until the test takes away said hope.

So I really don't want to get my hopes up. We have been let down so many times. My cycles are so freaking erratic it's almost to know when I'm ovulating. I have an appointment with a fertility specialist later this month. But I know we bd during what could have been an ovulation window. And my so told me he had a dream that I was preggers. Which I had been wondering myself because of a few symptoms. Trying not to get too hopeful. But would be so exciting!

so im suppose to ovulate over my birthday/valentines day. yay heres hoping for a sexy time ;)

I've been spotting for a solid week now. this happened before i was even suppose to hit my fertility window. now im at the point where seriously either bleed to stop all together. i want to get back to bding but can't with my body being this indecisive. ugh lol

so yesterday my fertility specalist called to say one of my insurances doesn't cover any fertility treatment. Im like yeah i know thats why i gave you the other. he just tells me to be prepared to pay upfront. im like why my second insurance will cover it all. just silence then the same of be prepared to pay it all up front. ugh wtf people why not just use the insurance. its kinda why i pay for it.

so just played my daily game of what random food scrapes was left in the bottom of the sick and what and why is the trash leaking? You may know it by its other name: cleaning the kitchen. lol

update: finally have an appointment to see a fertility specialist. but sadly its not until march 21st. this wait is going to kill me i swear! looked this dr up online and yes he is covered by my insurance and has a better patient satisfaction than the first guy so maybe this was for the best.

so i was suppose to have heard from the fertility specialist before today. I give them a call to try and get my first appointment made. wow! thats a big no go. one the woman (the only person who answers phones) who called me back made the phone call unbearable. she would ask me several questions on a line of topic but right before finishing the topic (ex scheduling an appointment) (reason for my visit) she would stop and tell me she would come back to that later. so basically 20 minutes in a...