That moment when your tv app reveals that hubby has been watching X-rated stuff instead of being with me.... I didn't know being pregnant was such a big deal but I guess it is to him. so much so that he hasn't so much as more than hugged me in weeks. No exaggeration! And now he is back to working 12 hours a day.... what to do?! I guess I'll just be here getting bigger and more uncomfortable.

Ok ladies, this is the latest update my husband did on Facebook. God is good!

It means more pictures of baby in 3rd trimester (Oh darn). She was more concerned with my contractions than she was with the baby's diagnosis. This really helped our family and our hearts.

I know when I have been doing too much (which has been everyday since Friday) because baby stops moving. as my heart rate rises, she gets stressed out because of her lack of blood. I have only kept up my house and done my normal mommy duties (cooking, cleaning, taxi, and supervision of the masses). 5000 steps a day is too much for me I guess. ugh! I can't do squat.

Some people are so heartless! I was having to explain the 2 vessel cord with someone and she was like "Oh yeah! My daughter had that with her baby but it was stillborn." Really?! Did she not think that has not been in the back of my mind this whole time? Did she not even think about my nerves? I have a hard enough time just muddling through the day. That just left me broken and speechless. Words do hurt worse than sticks and stones sometimes.

I've learned that I should never ask questions. I've been left in the dark about what is going on with my baby and now I know why. Doctors don't want to invest time and effort into a baby less than 22 weeks because their is a slim to no chance of survival in the 20s weeks gestation. Looks like I have to wait until May 31st to get real answers and pray everything is fine between now and then. I wish it was like the old days when you just went to the dr to deliver a baby. It won't matter what "pro...

Apple fritters and tater tots.... I think yes! lol. My hubby loves me. Or just wants some booty. lol

Zero appetite. Constant nausea. Misery for real!

I've been pretty silent for a weeks now. reality has hit and I am over my initial panic. I know I have complications. I have an idea of what to somewhat expect. I have left it all in God's hands because I can do nothing. Hubby and I still have not talked about it. That will come in time. Right now I just have questions that seem to have no real answers. Having a fairly common "uncommon" complication is difficult to get answers with. 1% of babies seems to still be a lot of babies when you Google ...

Yesterday at the dr we got a low blow. My baby is only getting 1/3 of the blood through the umbilical cord. There is nothing that we can do but trust in God and pray for the best case scenario. That being a preemie. She will eventually run out of enough nutrition to grow. Then she will be evicted. The worst case scenario is having a chromosome disorder / birth defects that they can't test for. Either way, it does not change the fact that she is loved now and that will never change.

For now we ...

Anatomy scan tomorrow with 4 kids and hubby. oh my! I'm excited for the big Kids (13 and 11) to finally get to see the baby. I will post back as soon as I can tomorrow. The apt is at 11:30.