i had a terrible nightmare.
i was invited to a big baby shower type thing and this guy in a costume who was playing with some kids comes over. i could clearly see he was a football player at my old highschool.he crawled out of the costume and went in for a hug before whispering sorry and putting his hand over my face. i tryed to scream for help but it was too late.. when i regained consciousness this black tar was all over my belly and the baby was gone i couldnt stop crying and started searchin...

am i the only one who gets a bit mad that when someone says im being hormonal
like. yeah i am. you wanna fight about it??

i want to cuddle so bad!!
like.. until later i made a pillow cuddle buddy till babe gets off work and can cuddle me!!

today im gonna focaus on inducing labor. maybe go for a long walk to the park an swing for a bit. im not sure yet haha. guess well see :)

i think the worst part is when you have to get things done and ask to message them later and then it turns into a game of 20 questions and then im fucked up for wanting to get the crib an the room cleaned up along with school work.. idk. makes me more depressed

man.. that moment it all just kinda sinks in.
im gonna be a mom..
im gonna have a baby soon..
wow.

weirdest feeling so far is when the doctor checks to see if im dilated.

ugh. woke up like mini contractions.
i just want to sleep.. its gonna be a long day

and like that hes gone.. *sigh* hes not gone for good but im gonna miss him being able to stay here with me..
soon well find a place an can cuddle at night.

asked my fiancee for a kiss.
he kisses me an swaps a kiss into my mouth.
you smooth cheeky dick waffle.
lol i love him