RANT.
My fiancee is trying to buy a new house; our house has SIX ROOMS, but for SOME REASON, he wants a NEW house that's BIGGER. He has a good job and all, but when we first were together, i told him that i never wanted to live in a super big house; im okay with a small 2-3 bedroom house or townhome. I honestly think one of the reasons is because hes trying to compete with his brother on "who can be the most successful " but its just so tiring + with our wedding hes trying to make it this GRAND ROYAL BANQUET lol
I am truly grateful because he is a huge and important part of my story and life. I am so happy for our healthy, beautiful babies. We've had so many conversations about this, but he still just doesn't want to give up; by Oct 2024, he said he wants to buy this house across town that literally has 8-9 rooms.. like, sir? Why? To compete with your brother? I just feel like it's not worth it, nor is it needed. Unless we're gonna have 7 babies, we dont need an 8 bedroom house. (And i am NOT having 7 babies.) 🥲🥲
I'm being induced. Baby has no heartbeat. I am numb and just want to die.
I need a bigger house we have 5 adults and 1 child in our house and it's a 2 bedroom trailer. Karen has her room then me and hubby have our room then our 2 roommate sleep in the living room 😭 too many people in our house!
Short Luteal Phase?
I've just started temping because I believe that the reason I haven't had a BFP yet, after 20 months, is because I believe I may have a Luteal Phase Defect.
Trigger. Lost baby
Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?

I had to share this picture of Raptor! He is still doing amazing! He has lost a little bit of weight but that's expected! Yesterday was our second time trying to breast feed and he latched and sucked!!! It was so amazing and I am so proud of him!