i have an ultrasound on the 16th and i’m really nervous. I’ve been going back and fourth on keeping the baby or having…

i have an ultrasound on the 16th and i’m really nervous. I’ve been going back and fourth on keeping the baby or having an abortion. I’m in a really bad mental state and i don’t know if keeping the baby will break me. I don’t want to make the wrong decisions or have any regrets. I haven’t allowed myself to accept this pregnancy or even get any sort of attachment. I’m scared and nervous. I want to do what’s best for myself and my kids I already have. especially with my mental health. I don’t care about judgements, We all have our own opinions. I never thought i’d consider an abortion but here I am. just venting.