To be honest I don't have the will to live anymore.... Because of what my ex husband did to me i have ptsd and anxiety…

Stay strong and reach out for health call your doctor. I don't have the ex husband but I have ptsd low self esteem I was physically and mentally abused my my ex boyfriend for years. It tore me to piece I tried to end it all. There is a light at the end to what you are feeling. Please reach out to someone you trust you are not alone. People will miss you so much. You have a purpose here. Im sorry you are going through this battle

I can't say that I have walked your exact path, but I was diagnosed with PTSD and severe depression following my third miscarriage in 2018. Right now you're at the beginning of the path and it feels all piled up on you. You don't have your team built yet that will help you feel whole. Your toolbox is completely empty as to how to deal with all these overwhelming emotions. It is NOT always going to be this way. You're going to climb out of this dark hole and feel good again.

Take that first step and reach out for help, that's one of the hardest steps you can take. Let the lawyers and judges deal with that man who wants to keep you down where he put you.

Talk to your doctor and they will recommend a good therapist. You probably need to take something to help you. I took Zoloft for about a year and it helped to lift the fog of depression and anxiety so I could work on getting tools in my toolbox to deal with ptsd.

Reach out any time. It's going to be okay. You have a lot to live for.

Been there not the ex husband part but I have been diagnosed with ptsd and major depression. When you have reached this point you must seek medical attention, a psychiatric hospital, it’s not all bad you find one with a mental rehab and it will work wonders plus gives you that space to focus on yourself, no worries about the kids or life just focus on you. I saw a tik tok of a woman angrily crying on her moms grave and you can feel the hurt she had that her mom didn’t die of natural cause but at the hands of herself, that’s not a pain you want your kids to go through. It’s better to seek help voluntarily than it being done for you in the back of a cop car on the way to suicide watch room, the second option is not fun.

This is so sad to read, you’re not alone. Please reach out to anyone you can, even women on here. Here’s another resource their chat is available 24/7 💜

https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/