Lately I have been having this fear of being alone when I’m older. I never really thought about it before but then out of nowhere, the idea of one day being on my own scares the s*** out of me. I know I won’t live with someone forever like my children will have their own life one day, my parents will die one day, I don’t really get a long with other relatives where we can live together. My bf won’t be around forever either and the thought of me living alone makes me feel like what if someone will break into my apartment/house or if a demon will be there. 😂 I know it sounds stupid and you would think hey being alone gives you time to do what you want without anyone in your way but I like to have someone I can interact with. I feel like I would have to sleep with the lights on or something. Basically it’s the feeling of being watched that terrifies me from either someone trying to break in or like if the place I would live in has something in it.

Sometimes I have these really messed up dreams where I have a demon on top of me or see dead bodies everywhere. Another dream I have had before was the devil eating a mans body in front of me and the earth looking like an apocalypse with buildings in ruins and almost no one around. (No I didn’t have that dream this year because of 2020😂) Am I the only one with this fear? Lol