So this past month has been hell and then some. My newborn has had problems so we've been back and forth to the hospital almost at least once a week if not more and we ended up spending almost $300 in gas alone just going to the hospital. Then my toddler was sick and her insurance got cut off because they messed up her paperwork and I had to fight it get them to fix it... then of course the lump we found in my breast and me having to go back and forth for the sonogram they did and then the emergency mammogram. Now we're waiting to hear from the surgeon to get scheduled to get a biopsy so we can find out if I have cancer! All this while trying to get this house and so far everything that could go wrong has gone wrong!!! My toddler has been so horrible at that... throwing fits and hitting people and yelling and screaming. Plus she's waking up in the middle of the night screaming for no reason and waking up the household. My husband who took off last month to help with the baby also started work again and they put him in the most dangerous area and he almost got hurt and he's so tired that we don't have time for anything because he has to be up at 3:45 am because he has to be at work at 4:45 am now. Lastly we have no money for anything at all, including food for the month!! We spent all our money we use for food for the month on gas back and forth to the hospital and doctors. We've even used almost all of our WIC items and already used the food pantry because we have nothing. I had a complete breakdown the other day and lost it on my toddler because she was jumping on the bed and landed right next to the baby, almost on the baby! I called my mother and told her everything and that I was done and so depressed I was getting close to just writing a will and giving my husband and girls the $400,000 for my life insurance the hard way because I couldn't take it anymore!!

Today, my mother and little sister came all the way to us and did the dishes for me and helped fold laundry and then took me and the girls to a Renaissance festival. We had so much fun, and it was much needed fun, then we went to Walmart where my mother bought us $300 worth of food and diapers!! It's been one of the greatest days ever! My husband was so happy seeing everything that he teared up. I'm so tired and yet so happy now it's unreal! I didn't realize how stressed I was until today and I feel so blessed that I have the mother I have!!