So the last few weeks I have been dealing with my bf/fiance/babydaddy doing stuff online he…

So the last few weeks I have been dealing with my bf/fiance/babydaddy doing stuff online he shouldn't be doing. Having usernames and passwords for secret websites. Lying about it. Finding pictures of himself he has taken for the sites when I'm not home or he leaves the house (nothing naked) also found 3 mini videos of 3 random women saved to his gallery (again not naked) but ITS THE POINT. Found he has/had a texting app where apparently women are texting him. This has been going on since March that I know of up until June 7th was the most recent picture taken. He's been doing this when I go out for dinner with my bestfriend or movies with my mom. I never go out but the last few months I've been doing more like going to dinner with girlfriends and movie nights with my mom to get a break from the kids. But he always knows where I am and we always post pictures to our social media so I mean he knows I'm not out with another guy. I confronted him we got into a bunch of conversations over it and arguments. He was lying at first but then once I showed him the proof🤷🏽‍♀️ I have the passwords for the texting app but I dont wanna look but at the same time I do. About 5 years ago way b4 we had kids I left him for a week and had relations with someone else. We were in a bad place and even though i broke up with him b4 i had any relations with anyone else he swears i still cheated. But I haven't done anything like that in over 5 YEARS! He is using that as an excuse and says oh u could do it again. I'm just like if I wanted someone else I wouldn't have had kids with u. Smh. We argue sometimes but all couples do. Our sex life is great so it's not that. He says it that fact that I never delt with being sexually abused and I bring that into our relationship and it does cause a lot of problems cause I'm not confident in myself and I dont love myself 100%. I have put him through a lot with my emotional baggage over the years but I still feel like that's no reason to go entertaining hoes online. He's keeps saying nothing happened, he hasn't done anything. And he cant understand why I'm so messed up behind this that I have a right to be pissed but I'm blowing it out of preportion. But its because we shouldn't be having these issues 6+years in!! This shit is stupid and it's doing nothing but stressing me out knowing if he truly has stopped or not. He says he's not doing anything and he never did anything. Him being on secret websites texting different females behind my back for MONTHS ik is not as bad as physically cheating but IT IS BAD CAUSE ITS EMOTIONAL. And that emotional fuck up leads to PHYSICAL fuck ups. I want this to work I really do. I'm not willing to throw away a 6+ year relationship. I am getting help for my abused/trust issues. I'm about to start counseling this week. I've poured my heart out to him telling him i love him and I'm sorry for my part in all this but if I'm getting help "for the reason your doing what your doing" you no longer have an excuse to continue doing this shit. So it's like if I find out he's continuing on with this I have to walk away. I've just praying hard about it. One minute I'll be fine and the next my anxiety will act up and I start stressing about if he's still texting other women or on these websites while he was at work or if I leave the house and if so what is he saying to them etc. I just really hope he really did stop. Idk I just cant trust that he has especially with all this just happening. Be he says this family, me and the kids is what he wants and I want to believe him since we have been talking so much about our future and I would have never known if I hadn't seen the pictures on his phone, he shows me affection and gas acted normal this whole time. But all this has me second guessing so much. .I hope he has stopped cause this isnt worth losing his family over. It's like I love him to much almost cause I've only ever been with him my whole adult life so far. But I'm not gonna sit here hoping he has stopped. I'm getting a plan B in case I need something to fall back on. I'm getting in therapy for my issues, I'm going see a dr about getting my health in check and losing some weight, I started calling schools about starting some classes so I can have some type of education under my belt so I can support me and my children if need be. He saying he's not leaving but because of everything I feel I need to work on myself just incase he desires he wants to switch up later. I'm just really praying hard that all this works out.