Made up my mind. I keep going back and fourth on weather or not my baby is going to have his or her…

Made up my mind. I keep going back and fourth on weather or not my baby is going to have his or her dad's last name. Definitely not. Why do that to myself, it means so much to me. 10x more then my SO. I regret giving my daughter his last name. Not because I don't love him or because he isn't around. But because it's my daughter and we aren't married. Or anything close to it. So it's not happening. I think about my daughter not having my last name literally every day and I beat myself up over it. About how dumb can I be. I gave up that right for her to have my name for someone I'm not committed to. And I most likely don't want to be. I wonder how that conversation will go but I don't care. Itsy life and I'm tired of people telling me what to do especially on something that means everything to me. And if things were ever going to get 100% better and we want to get married like he says we will then he wouldn't have a problem with it. But deep down I know I don't want to be legally tied to someone who can't respect me in everyway and I don't trust. That's just stupid thinking. So yeah, my son or daughter will have my last name. And j need to stop thinking about how it will LOOK. Having my first born with my last name. My second with his and now my third with my last name. And do what feels right to me..