I feel like my life is a nightmare

For over a year now I've just been living in a bad dream. And I will never wake up from it.

So this has nothing to do with my pregnancy but it's a thought I've been having lately: when I first met my husband I told him I was bisexual but willing to date him as long as my past was never bought up in our relationship.... been married for 4 years now and lately I've been missing a female touch... I don't love him any less in fact I love him more each day but sometimes I miss that intimacy

So about 3 weeks ago I had a miscarriage... I haven't posted about it as it's been a crappy few weeks and been getting my head around it all.. well today I've been having clear mucus when I wipe (tmi sorry). It's been happening the past few days, I've been tired, appetite has been up and down, bloated etc.. I know the right thing to do is take a test but how long after a miscarriage is it possible to be pregnant? I'm not sure whether it's just ovulation that could be happening.. I'm so confused😩

****TMI****need advice...I've been feeling good physically today but my baby isn't hitting the number of movement per hour and has since I got up in the am. I was having loose bowels which have gotten worse and now I've only felt when I've went to receive my bowels and she balls up hard. and I've had major Increase of pressure in abdomen vagina and rectal areas...any ideas what's up?

What is wrong with me !?I'm sorry I'm always posting things that seem wrong with me but it's been 6 weeks since c section and my whole body aches like hurts and my head is killing me and I have been waking up with anxiety everyday and even when I take naps ... I'm tired and feel like blah !!! Someone else let me know this will pass please I can't feel like this I want to feel happy and good .