I love my daughter with every inch of me but I also envy every woman that is living the early years of her life with no kids 😢 It just gets so hard especially when you’re on your own. I have two jobs and still don’t feel like I’m doing enough. I don’t get breaks because after work I’m at another job and after that I have Niya . Sometimes I want to go back and change my decisions not because I don’t want my daughter but because I feel I am failing at being a mother and as a person in general. I just wish I could be in a better situation with her, she deserves soooo much better than this! As time goes on I feel more and more horrible like I’m doing so much and it’s not making a difference at all!!!!!!! 😢😭💔
Комментарии
I had poodle bug at 23 which is not entirely early but also felt the same way. I’m also about to have IVF at 33 and scared shitless. And also still feel the same. Poo bear is 9 now and though this child is spoiled rotten I want more for him. More stability. Nicer home etc. we never stop feeling like a failure as a mother no matter how old we get. There is too much pressure on us and we always want better for them. Hold your head up beautiful!!!!!
Short Luteal Phase?
I've just started temping because I believe that the reason I haven't had a BFP yet, after 20 months, is because I believe I may have a Luteal Phase Defect.
So I wanted to name my daughter Serenity & then my brother & parents called me after they had a whole house meeting saying the name “wouldn’t get her a job”.. now I’m back to square one 🙄
I’m all in my feelings today because today my sweet angel would have been 2, it hurts so much
What will my doctor do if I tell her I’m depressed and I can’t handle the pain anymore because I’m very uncomfortable at this point and I don’t know how much longer I can be like this.
Welp if it makes y’all feel better , I was hoping my own baby didn’t come out ugly because my baby daddy be looking ugly to me sometimes .
I had my first when I was 17.
Even though I had her young. I see her now and where we are at and every struggle and thing I didn’t get to do, doesn’t matter. You may be missing out on some things during your Younger years but think of all the fun and exciting things you will be able to do when she’s a bit older and your still young :).