We woke up to snow!!!!!!!!!!!

Not only did I get a job yesterday, but they invented a position to better work with my skills. To have someone believe in me in a time when I didn’t believe in myself means so much!

I think I’m actually never going to have another baby. I think it’s all just bullshit. And the more I realize it. The more it hurts. Who the hell can afford to drop 14k on IVF. It’s sick

Decided to get back into my baking. I’m starting to feel like me again.

It’s hard as a woman to admit when you’re an alcoholic, not to mention suffering severe depression. I admitted myself into treatment, and have now been sober since Monday. It’s not easy to admit when we have finally lost control. But I’m not ashamed. I’m taking my life back.

I think me and the boyfriend might go out tonight!!!! Yasssssss

Last night was so scary. Had to call the ambulance. I just simply couldn’t breathe. I could exhale, but couldn’t inhale. I was started to get so dizzy and it just felt like something was stuck in my throat. In the ambulance I threw something up and then felt fine afterwards. But it still doesn’t feel “normal” this morning.

That feeling of relief when you see the school bus rolling up!!! Bye bye boo. Helllloooo coffee!!!!

I’m not being the “Normal” Mom. I don’t want to be a soccer Mom. My son loves when my hair is fun colors so dammit I’m going to have my fun colors again. And I’ll rock it at the PTA.

One of the worst parts of being infertile is still being cognizant of your vaginal fluid changes, and knowing you’re ovulating, but it’s pointless :-( #infertile #ttc #ivf