Possibly a long rant

This is an update on a previous post. To get you up to speed, my husband "planned" a surprise sprinkle to celebrate our rainbow baby. I was furious when I found out because I have PTSD from losing our first daughter at 38 weeks, and we talked about not doing anything this time around. We had a big baby shower with our first, and this is a major trigger. Weeks pass by, we talked it out and the idea started growing on me. At the end his intention was good and I do feel this baby needs to be celebrated. We agreed on something small with close friends and family. He insisted on not stressing me out with any of the preparations (I can be pushy) so he reported to be "in charge" and having help. He even booked an appointment for me to get a pre natal massage that day so I'm not in the house while he works on this. (I wasnt supposed to know anyways, after all it was a surprise.)

The event is THIS Saturday. My family is flying from out of state for this, along with some of my friends. I'm asking for updates and come to find out... he put his sister in charge, sister put her girlfriend (who I met only once) in charge and she has bailed. Apparently she's to shy for the job. So NOTHING is prepared and nobody seems worried. His family who was going to help with the food, dont have transportation. So we dont even know if they're coming. He feels terrible and doesn't know what to do. Now I'm stuck planning something I didn't even wanted to begin with. Is too late to cancel and I feel sorry for the people that is traveling (specially with the hurricanes and weather this week) 😤

I'm grateful for having people in my life that want to be here for us and this new baby after all we been through. And although some of you might think, is just a shower... for me is a sensitive topic. Nobody understands the trauma behind it. Just the fact that I'm being forced to face this chapter when I was not ready SUCKS.