I hope I don't sound to evil, I have 5 kids with a man who over the last couple of years I've fullen out of love with, I can't help but feel sick in the pit of my stomach at the thought of having sex with him I don't like him touching me or saying he loves me I keep all my feelings hidden because how can you tell someone that even the sight of them makes you feel sick, it's not as simple as just leave I've got 5 tiny kids and their dad is all I have to help with them, I couldn't cope alone and I know he wouldn't help me if I left him I mean why would he if we ain't together anymore, I honestly find him so boring, I got with him young and feel like ive evolved and grown as a person but he's still the same lazy good for nothing excuse of a waster as he was when I met him, there's no sexual chemistry between us at all he doesn't know how to flirt infact doesn't even compliment me just screws his ugly jealous face up when other men check me out, all he does is play games, he gets up every now and then and does some cleaning up and goes shopping he also takes the kids to school but all reluctantly does nothing with a smile on his face his such a misrable moaning person never happy doesn't like doing anything good or fun with his family I make all the family decisions from what we eat to where we go, I practically have to drag him out the door to do anything with his family it's all starting to sicken me seeing him get fatter and fatter just playing games constantly and moaning it's a drain on the sole it's gone on for 7 years, I've got nothing left for him i see him for how he really is a waster. How could I tell him all this in the nicest way possible?
I would like to say I ain't having a dig at you there about you leaving and not being in love. As your mental health is just as important, could you trail a separation? Spend some time apart and see if it's what you really want? Could you try relationship councilling? just so he could understand what pressure your under as you sound like your playing the "mum" and "dad" role for your kids and he's just existing which can make you resent him.
I hope your okay anyway, relationships are tough and no one can say you haven't gave it a good go so don't feel like you have to stay because of the kids, because he's still a dad whether your together or not. hope you find some peace and work out what's best for you. ♥️