Hey so I spent an awesome day with my kids and in laws and thought I'd catch up on the chat on the fun and random anime…

@deletedapp, AND no it’s not fair deb because someone is still being dishonest. And we as innocent people got the back lash. To be honest it’s not the groups/monkeys fault it’s the person who’s not being honest. If they would’ve just let everyone know this all wouldn’t have happened.

@deletedapp, please don’t worry too much. I would like to say some things if someone hasn’t already explained. I’m friendly with almost everyone. Unfortunately when something bad happens I am noticed because I’m friendly with whatever person. It’s happened to me before with mama when there was a mole in the chat on here. But it wasn’t me. Also it wasn’t just us removed. There were a few others. And it wasn’t monkeys who decided that. They wanted people to check in and I couldn’t because I was working. Therefore I was removed. I was upset at first but I’ve talked to them and they said they were sorry. I understand how upsetting it is to know someone is being dishonest and they wanted to be safe. It was said that whoever did it they aren’t mad at they understand they were standing up for their friend but they should’ve been honest that they were going to let pie know what was said. I and some others were let back in after communicating. I hope all is well with you darlin

I've compartmentalized my sadness because this puzzle is far more distracting. Like...I pour over information like a weirdo. I could've actually helped figure out WHO the mole was.

Or the ladies in the chat could've given me a heads up before kicking me out. I would've left with a bang...or a cool gif at least. Not talking about a shooting at a mall I frequent and giving my 2 cents about Ron from Jersey Shore.

Geeze. Way to let a fellow BBer go 🙄

Anyway, what is the proof that there was a mole? Was there already an inclination that there was a mole before the word "mole" was brought into the chat? Did someone say something on this app that made others wonder how they knew what was being said? Were direct quotes being referenced? Were there screenshots posted from the chat onto here?

I have so many questions.

Well if there is a mole then someone is letting you cop the blame. 🧐Hopefully people on there that know you realise that’s just not what you would do. If anything you tend to try and lighten drama up not cause it lol.

Just treat yourself to something and try to push this to the bCk of your mind.

Feel better 😘😘

@reginafelange that's very sweet of you to say. It definitely cheered me up. Now I just feel bothered because I'm used to watching these social drama dynamics happen to other people, so to be in it by presumed association to whomever they thought I was sending screenshots to, feels like a puzzle.

I hate unsolved puzzles.

😳I’m genuinely surprised to see that. I can’t imagine you or Feeney doing anything like that, what an immature situation.

Well I call bullshit that it was either of you.

I’m so sorry that a forum of mums has led you to feel so shitty.

Not deserved, I’m 100% sure of that 💕💕

@reginafelange thank you for the kind words 💓 They really do mean a lot. I'm still not entirely certain what occurred. I'm still going through it in my head to try to pinpoint what I did exactly to make others doubt me (that's the anxiety coupled with obsessive thinking that comes with having Aspergers YAY!).

To provide a quick summary, some bb ladies moved to an app called Amino which is basically different forums with their own themes. I was provided the code to join the bb forum which was made private and then I was added to a private chat amongst certain members. The private chat was very active, and being that I'm still working, tutoring and have 2 kids, I checked in from time to time either just to see what the conversation was about or to just throw in my own foolishness (which was usually late in the game considering it was more active at night).

Anyway when I tried to join in, I noticed the bb group icon was gone. I thought maybe I didn't update the app or something. But I noticed that I was still in the private chat. It was still quite active, but I wasn't sure what was going on so I scrolled up and read that some users believed there was a mole sending screenshots to someone and @monkeysalwayswins verdict was that it was either myself or Feeney. And I guess everyone agreed because I was unable to comment in the private chat.

So I made this post and now I can't stop obsessively thinking about the whole thing and I was tempted to read the WHOLE group chat, but I knew it would just make me even more upset, so I deleted my Amino account.

Not that it makes a difference now. It's hard for me to sleep because this whole thing has actually invaded my dreams and I wake up in tears lol. Hence the reason why I'm just going to delete this app because I don't need this in my thoughts right now. It's not healthy for me, my family or my pregnancy.

No no no. Now I have no idea what’s happened, at all but I do know from years on B.B. that you aren’t malicious, cruel, nasty or mean. You don’t deserve to feel so low about anything on an app and I for one would be sad if you disappear.

I’m not on here very much so I’ve missed whatever it is but your happy funny posts and comments far outweigh whatever drama has occurred.

I hope you are ok💕💕💕

And unfortunately, the more I think about this, the more upset this makes me feel. It's kind of ridiculous because I've always just kept my distance with the drama and tried my best to be impartial and/or rational and it seems like my rationality has somehow made me target enough to remove me from what I thought was friendly banter.

My negative emotions seem to have gotten triggered, which I think is a good sign that I've developed a unhealthy attachment to what you ladies think of me. It's just not right for me to feel THIS upset over it.

As a result, I'm going to be one of those gross users that makes a dramatic goodbye post lol. I suppose this is it. I'll leave this up for a few days and then delete.

I honestly wish you all the best and hope that whatever is going on in your lives doesn't become so toxic that you feel the need to spread it online. But, if you must in order to keep a sense of happiness and balance in your daily lives and around your children, then so be it. I, however, no longer wish to be apart of it -- even though I'm just watching it from a distance on the off chance that I ever am able to catch it in time.

Sending all my love from Canada 💓