Hey sorry it's been a while. But we've had a busy couple weeks. I'm doing okay. Just trying to spend as much time with the kids as I can. Dds birthday was last Wednesday. We got to go to the Science Museum. It was a blast I hadn't been since I was pregnant with her. She loved it and it's her new favorite place! I can't believe I have a 4 year old she started pre k last week as well. Thursday we start tumbling classes. I can't believe how grown up she's becoming. Ds is learning new words everyday. He's such a little ham. He's still refusing to learn to walk but he's definitely pulling up a bunch more. We are about to have to schedule surgery for him for undescended testicle. So I'm a little nervous about that but I'm sure it'll be fine. Now as for me health-wise I'm okay but mentally not at my best point. I'm bipolar and I can't seem to get my anger under control very much the past couple weeks. But at the same time the stuff I'm angry about is Justified. Like I'm hurt the DH parents didn't reach out to tell DD happy birthday. But yet they threw a fit to be involved in the DS's birthday. It is not okay but of course I'm not allowed to say any of this to my husband. Because that's his parents and I should respect my elders. Sorry was not raised like that. But his parents have free reign to talk crap on me. I have also decided I am not speaking to my mother until she acknowledges that she is a negative person. Every time I see her she points out I've gained weight she told me I look like a boy and I have gray hair. I know that may not seem like a lot but I'm very self-conscious about my hair so all that hurts badly. But of course I bring it up to her and I'm delusional she never said any of that. But I have aunts and SIL that heard her say it. So of course I probably shouldn't have I know but I lost my cool. But at the same time I know it's my mental health that's letting all this get to me as bad as it is. But there's not really much I can do because I am taking my meds other than let it run its course. But all things considered I think I'm doing pretty well. I know I'm at least enjoying time with my kids and that's all that really matters to me.