I’m in so much pain I just want to go home and hurt. The hospital doesn’t even know why they r just guessing. But if I left and something happened my baby and I could die. I just gotta make it. I have no choice. But I still just wanna sleep in my own bed with my puppies. Next Tuesday is my csection then heal 4 days. Can’t waitto go home. This baby better love me. Or I’ll cry forever. Idk how people expect me to have more than 1 kid. Not sure how I’m going to make it through this one. And the hard part hasn’t even started. He will be in nicu for at least 2 weeks. I’m so mad at my body making the placenta and blood cord wrong. I could have protected him and he wouldn’t need to be in the nicu. We wouldn’t have to be preparing to fight for his life. I’ll be glad pregnancy is done but sad because now it will be his turn to fight. I wish I could just do it for him like normal moms with normal pregnancies. I’d go through all the pain and discomfort in the world for him to not have to go through the fight, pain, struggles, medical things he is about to. I have such conflicting feelings.